Sunday, February 1, 2009

What lies ahead...

So, I am graduating in April. I turn 25 in 1 day, and I will be honest, I don´t have any idea what I am going to do with my life this year. I think about it probably every other minute and I try to give good answers when the questions are asked, but I really don´t know.
Do I leave Provo? Do I stay in Provo? What kind of job do I want? Do I go to grad school? Is this really what I want?
For the record, I do not regret being 25 and where I am in my life. I am 100% pleased with the course of my life up to this point and I would not change a thing, I just wish that I had a plan for after this point. To be honest, I never expected to be 25 and single and trying to decide about which career to pursue. I was one of the little girls who thought 21 was a little old for getting married, haha. I fully expected to be married and with 2 kids by this point in my life, but alas, it has been full of unexpected turns. I served a mission which was the best decision that I have ever made. I went on an internship to Ecuador which again was very impacting. I was in love and thought that I was going to get married, and now here I am - almost graduated from college.
I don´t know yet what is going to happen next in life. Really and truly - no idea! I try to predict it and set up a game plan, but then I throw it out. Sometimes I wonder if my plans are pointless since I always seem to take the unexpected route that suddenly pops up. Hmm...right now I´d really like a magic globe that would tell me would just lay out these next few months for me, but I guess the adventure and the learning comes from taking a few steps into the dark.